The men standing outside Home Depot seem to not be suffering too greatly. They clump under sparse shade trees. Some smoke. Some talk. Some cast slight looks toward passing cars.
They remind me of prostitutes. There is something simultaneously frail about them--for their sorely desired services are officially forbidden--and stronger, too, than I am--for hazard and chaos toughen when they do not destroy.
I am sure that the men are viewed with scorn or disgust. I fight back pity--I fucking hate pity--and go about my errand elsewhere. I save my revulsion for johns, and maybe that's low of me, too. Whatever gets you through the night. I probably shouldn't judge. But we live in a country of johns who hate those who feed their fixes--for cheap labor, or purchased sex.
I wonder if all of us aren't standing on street corners of our own.
" I mean, for wom'n to put up with us, they have to have NO self esteem. ... " quoting you from pen jack here .. ..... i'm pooling in something of this right now ..and i was just sitting up in the window staring down to the street corner ..mind lingering far too long ..,if my hesitation was down there.. closer ..they would more than pause as they passed .. .. said the most feminine .. ./ cuneyt ..what was your schooling in .?.i'm trying to figure out something about the way you write .. / ..of the pooling ..if you want to know in part ..why .. go to whois ..then in to the eerily L. link.. .look down through my comments there.. /be cautious on interpretation ..i am very different in some way it seems .. ,
ReplyDeleteMy college degrees are in, in increasing order of expense, "General Studies," "International Affairs," and "Counseling."
ReplyDeleteAnd what, do you mean Whois.net or Whoisioz.blogspot?
i did not know that there was a whois net ... ..i better go back to saying whois'
ReplyDeleteis whois net ..something that i should know .about ?. .i would have thought the ..from where i've come in ,of whois' .. ..of from .. was clearer some how .. but how i got there not so well known .. .?
ReplyDeletewhois.net serves to tell you who owns a domain. if you dont instruct your domain name provider to keep it private, it spills the beans.
ReplyDeletealmost', .. . why are you telling of this in this way . .. 'morning .. . ?
ReplyDeletecuneyt , do you know why ..almost' wrote what he did in this way .. .? i have no domain ..what would this mean to me .. .
ReplyDelete..as i was looking over some of your writing over the last while ..i saw an odd divy ..with in one piece of writing .. . that i can now see a something of ... .your schooling in.. international affairs ..to something of what you call counseling ..i said something to john at this time of this .. ....and i also said of something else that i wondered about.. in .. that was answered when you said your age ..i said in my wording something of ..earnest.. . to john .. and he said exactly to something of what i was seeing .. .. . / of the orphaned mentioned .. .it was in part of something of your talking about how you were with your own in the evening..in a few postings .. back a bit .. . something that carried over from something of who you are to how you looked after them in some way i sensed .. . and it is also carrying over in to something of this ...it seems new ..job ..in you .. ...i want to quote one line in something you wrote back to you here ..i'll go look.. .
ReplyDeletealso have you written something here that more than touches on why first of something of international affairs ..and of then going over to what you are doing now .. of all the whys and more .. somewhere that you could direct me to to read .. ?
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